Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Separation Anxiety

Posted by Stephanie & Tyler at 4:11 AM 0 comments
Sure there are many times when parenting can be very difficult. I'm
sure there'll be many more times that it is much more difficult than it is now
but I will say that at times right now it can get pretty difficult on Tyler and I. Now Skye is going through a bit of separation anxiety so it's pretty much
impossible to do anything that doesn't involve holding her or sitting
on the ground right next to her. It's definately not acceptable to her for you to be standing 2 feet away from her. You must be sitting down so she can just rest her hand on your leg or crawl into your lap at a whim. They say that she is just learning that she is a person separate from Tyler and I. I can see how that can get pretty scary at times. For example the other night Skye woke up at 2 AM for no reason other than to scream her head off. It was just silence on the monitor
and then all of a sudden she's screaming bloody murder. She
wasn't hungry and didn't have a dirty diaper. Also, for months now she has gotten really great at sleeping through the night so this was highly abnormal. I think she just got scared. I think she woke up and it was really dark and she couldn't see and wanted Tyler and I but we weren't there so she just freaked out! It's hard on Skye and really hard on Tyler and I.

On another note: The other night I wasn't feeling very good so Tyler fed Skye and put her to bed without my help and for some reason it is really hard for me to completely extricate myself from the process without feeling guilty about it. Now Tyler is as much of an awesome parent as there
ever was and he really does as much as any father I've ever known
and he's good at it. He puts Skye in bed all the time when I'm at work so
I don't know why it was a big deal I guess I feel guilty you about
going to work and so I feel like when I'm at home I should do
everything for Skye because I'm not when I'm at work but it was hard
for me, even though I was not feeling good, to rest. Tyler says that it hurts his feelings when i think things like that because it debases his efforts. Its not that I feel like Tyler cant do it or wont do it well but its more an inner drive that makes me feel like i need to pick up the slack i create by working. Im sure a lot of working mothers feel similarly as we have to be the BEST mother, the BEST employee, the BEST wife, and the BEST daughter, sister, friend. Please let me know if you have ever felt the same? I am going to be trying to concentrate less about what i "should be" doing and just enjoy Skye. If anyone has figured out how to do this please let me know. :)
On the plus side: Skye is more loving lately. She is exploring everything and is laughing ALL THE TIME! The other day we discovered that she loves to ride on my shoulders. Below is a recent pic of Skye eating dinner. This is typically what she looks like when all is said and done. Bath time!! :)

Friday, May 14, 2010

Very Random things I love about Skye

Posted by Stephanie & Tyler at 5:29 PM 0 comments
When Skye was first born i was really scared that she didn't know who i was or remember me when i got done with a week of work. I don't know if this is a common feeling of mothers or if it was just a play of my own insecurities. Either way that is thankfully long gone! Even though she doesn't speak yet she has learned how to say i love you with her eyes. If i just walk into sight she gets a big grin on her face showing off her tooth. She will crawl over to me and pull up on my legs just to be held. She loves to bury her head into my shoulder when she is tired. She NEVER smiles bigger than when she sees me. Now Skye's a daddy's girl but boy oh boy does she love her momma! I guess its just cause she can since the protection i offer her...the way Tyler and I provide her with almost everything she needs or wants. I'm sure a lot of the way she behaves now is due to her age and development and having a bit of "stranger danger" but i just hope she always loves her momma this much!

Some more things that Skye LOVES: reading her books, hanging upside down, being tickled (she's ticklish under her arms, her neck, and her feet), raspberries on her belly and baths. The picture below is of her as she hears the water running for her nightly bath.

Skye also loves to eat. Her favorites are bananas, sweet potatoes, butternut squash and peas. We are starting to give her bits of solid food to try. She loves these things called baby mummum and she can grab em and they just dissolve in her mouth. She likes cut up banana and raspberries. She also eats the puffs and yogurt bites. Speaking of eating it has been easier for Skye since she cut that first tooth and EVEN easier now that she is cutting a second. Its on the bottom, right next to her first one! She's just the best!

I know this posting is a little random but these are some of the things that i love about Skye that i want to remember in a few short years!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Eat, Sleep, Teethe

Posted by Stephanie & Tyler at 3:00 AM 0 comments

Having a baby is the most fun, life affirming, stressful thing i can even imagine. I'm 80% sure Skye is teething. I cant see a tooth yet but she is displaying behaviors that are pretty common during that teething phase such as being irritable, drooling, chewing on EVERYTHING (she even chews when she has nothing in her mouth, she looks like she is chewing her tongue), low grade fever and worst of all sleep disturbances. She has decided that she wants to wake up at 6am!! I really thought that 7 am was bad and i would pray every day that she could just stretch it out till 8am. 6 am for me is just impossible. Tonight Tyler said it took her AN HOUR to go to sleep! That NEVER happens! Usually she is so tired from a crammed packed day of play that she can hardly stay awake long enough to finish her bottle and when we put her down WE MAY get a slight whimper but usually she just silently goes to sleep. Nap times have changed also. She isn't sleeping as long as she normally does. She usually sleeps for 1.5 hrs to 2 hrs per nap but i can hardly get her to sleep for 45 min. Not to mention that she seems tired ALL DAY LONG. She is constantly rubbing her eyes. Its funny to me how unique motherhood is. I see all these signs of general unrest and it plagues me. It hangs on my mind like a weighted vest. I cant think of anything other than Skye and these sleep problems. I think of it like a puzzle that i need to piece together all of the reasons why Skye has changed things all of a sudden. How can I fix this? Its amazing how Tyler can see the changes and with all of his serenity and wisdom can accept the changes as is and continue on his path without missing a step while i sit here like a spinning top. As I'm sitting here I wish i could be more like Tyler and not let things like this bother me. I wish i could sit back and not care if she got 15 bottles a day or had 4 naps of 15 min each. I wish i didn't feel held back and could take her all around town and completely disregard her nap schedule. I wish i could be selfish and work Skye into MY life. I cant. I am completely unable. The second i heard that first cry on September 16, 2009 and felt her warmth as they laid her on my chest for the first time it was all over for me. The instant she looked into my eyes i lost myself. I am no longer able to disregard all of those seemingly minute ridiculous things. I am Skye's mother now and as such will spend the rest of my life trying desperately to make her life easier, calmer, happier!

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